...exactly one month has gone by that I have not been working at a job which is taxed by our government. To most, this means I am unemployed. Although, I have a itsy bitsy flicker of hope that if you asked those who know me closely and have known my schedule for the past month, you might hear otherwise. Might they would call me Privately Employed, or perhaps Hopelessly Productive. Skillfully Sustained? Maybe even Laboriously Creative. Okay, I am probably pushing it a bit with dreams that my housemates enjoy the scraps of fabric and piles of scrap wood laying around here and there. I am fortunate that they only encourage me, even while pushing bits of yarn and moss to the side with a smile each evening while they ask, "Did we want to try and clear the table for dinner tonight... or...?"
The truth of it all is... I feel more inspired and excited about life right now than I can remember feeling in the past ten years. Truly. A month without work will do wonders, I suppose! In all honesty, though, I believe there is a reason that I haven't settled into a desk job. (Don't tell my Father, but I have opportunistically "missed" a few calls and emails about interviews for jobs that just did not appeal to me.) The reason might be the tremendous monsoon of love and kindness which was showered upon me by families of children who I taught at my last job. Hearing repeatedly (not just from the five year olds) that I COULD do big things absolutely planted new seeds in my mind. Those seeds are being nurtured right now. They are warmed by the sunshine of those who continue to encourage me, fed by the love of those in my life that have reached out their arms to support me, and drenched in the consistent showers of goodness that this beautiful world has to offer. Those seeds are startin' to sprout down in the depths of this native California girl. I don't even know what those plants are going to look like or turn into, but I'm willing to bet that they're going to have me stepping back and exclaiming, "Where did this even come from?" once they start to blast out of the nurturing depths they silently sprouted in.
I promise that every entry won't be this "butterflies and rainbows, ya'll!!!!" but sometimes, when life hands you lemons, and the lemonade ends up being this good, you want to share the recipe and find out what someone else is drinkin' and lovin'. If I send you a link to this, it is because you are someone who has reassured me, loved me, supported me, rubbed me on the back, sold me good tomatoes, impressed me, reminded me what life is really about or maybe I just think you're super cool and inspirational and would like your feedback on my goofy ideas. Thanks for reading, and thank you for returning in the future if you find your way back!
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